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Monday, March 17, 2008

ha ha ha zzzomg i am home at this time of the day that is so fantastic.
i have no training till next wed! (the coach is not in town)

so sch wasnt too bad today...
was rather high in the morning cos i have new nice songzz to listen to. :D
and cos there were v little lessons today. like, effectively two.?
but well, what goes up must come down. :(
i'm sorry i didnt mean to feel like this i'm glad you all are happy once again
i'm a selfish ugly bitch
chem spa was..................... -.-
there i was trying to concentrate, there in the other room was handbell tinkling away.....
sheesh i swear i wanted to just walk out (after slamming the beaker on the floor)
they were playing phantom of the opera btw. with this incessant tok tok tok tok tok tok tok (x infinity)....
not that i dont like phantom, but it didnt really help with the frustration...

oais gave us a farewell today
got a big red elmo balloon, i named him emo. lol.
pretty sweet of them, but it was such a hurry i had to leave at 2.15 (it started at 2.05.?) for chem spa.
and i didnt eat the cake though they left some cos it was all mushy and well..... gross.
dont know why, but our stepdown as ldrs felt reallly unofficial.
sigh. cedarians are really bad at closures.

argh. why cant ants dieeeeeeee.

k i'm just upset. for no reason. no reason at all.
you know how humans are all such masochistic creatures.
like even when there's no reason to be sad, we're sad anyway.
cos there's no reason to be happy either.
and every littlest thing exaggerates itself till it fills the entire cavity of your bursting mind, nagging in the background of every other thought, gnawing endlessly at the raw jagged edges of the hole in your heart till its simply impossible to be happy..
its terrible, how sadness becomes an equilibrium state of mind...


she's not here @

5:28 PM