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Monday, June 23, 2008

its a magical world!
or so we should believe.

23rd june officially started with a sleepless night despite my dose of melatonin. (why why why)
which was a blessing in disguise, because i woke up earlier, giving myself more time to wash up.
i love taking my own sweet time. :)
traveled to school in the usual dreaded fashion,
met with the usual awesome people for breakfast.
doped up on caffeine, i was prepared for my first day back to skooool..

i was as bubbly and as enthusiastic as any preschooler on their first day in school. i babbled non-stop, made inconsequential small talk, greeted every teacher i saw.
but as the day dragged on and the wonderful effects of caffeine waned, impatience planted its roots in me and began to grow branches, sprout leaves, and bear fruits. in the end, i was left shag and shredded of hope. my canvas had to bear the full brunt of my insufferable impatience. poor thing.

this month long holiday has clearly brought about growth, and a change of mindset in everyone.
growth in hair length and a mindset gravitating towards the immature end of the spectrum.
a mindset that only further accentuates the foibles of human nature, the very reasons attributing to my misanthropy.
let me elucidate, lest i should seem to contradict myself at times.
i always tell people that i believe every bad person has a good heart.
no one is born bad, but environmental factors and poor upbringing leads to the perversion of human character, causing that person to become "bad".
gosh, this makes me sound like a people lover.
HOWEVER, i see it as a fact that everyone lies, manipulates, and indulges in hypocrisy.
yes, even the "good" ones.
everything a person does is dictated by motive.
be it fear, guilt, or anger, this motive belongs to the general category of self- interest.
"i had to do what i thought was right.."
well, its the only reason anybody does anything.

ostracized.? i care not.
looking at the people i am to defend myself against, it hardly seems worth it.
they say 'ignorance is bliss'.
i beg to differ.
feigned ignorance makes you a slightly happier kid.

she's not here @

8:44 PM