Monday, December 25, 2006
when darkness turns to light
it ends tonight
it ends tonight
MERRY CHRISTMAS or HAPPY YULETIDE, MY DEAR FRIENDS!!!
tis the season for thanksgiving, so i wanna thank all who've contributed to the fun in my life thus far..
THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOU!!! :D
christmas is the day where all bottles of red wine, white wine, martini, irish liqour, sherry of 17% alc. (and ol' sparkling juice for younger ones xD) are opened for sharing, tasting,drinking,and drunking! *hehehe*
and lets not forget the good food, turkey, ham, beef, pasta....etcetc....
and of course, GAMBLING till 4am in the morning!!! (we played black jack this yr. and hell, LY WON OVER $16. much much more. haha)
haha. maybe next year, we should play mah jong on christmas. xD
but does anyone notice.?
but does anyone care.?
and if i had the guts to put this to your head...
would anytthing matter if you're already dead.?
and should i be shocked now by the last thing you said.?
before i pull this trigger,
your eyes vacant and stained...
Thursday, December 21, 2006
THANKYOU JOLYN FOR THE SOUVENIERS!!!
she gave me a jumbogantic, ginormous VOODOODOLL(i named it booboo.)
and a cute aussie wombat keychain. (i named it biibii. no, not baabaa)
muahahaha~!!!!! offend me and diieeeeee. *glinting eyes*
today, me and jolyn went to see samuel and his friend jam.
GOSH THEY WERE SO GOOD! and their chemistry's really good too...!
can you believe samuel self-thought himself the guitar and he's been playing for less than a year.?!
cos i cant. T.T *jealous*
then we went to penninsular plaza so samuel can buy his strings and look at doraemon guitars, crazy vacuum cleaner guitars and a rifle guitars.. actually, all kinds of guitars.
and later, we got bored and went jamming again! (more of watch samuel play cos he made us pale in comparison. xD) but it was fun la..
then, it was time to go home.. me and samuel spent the entire train ride talking about how TFS makes stupid ppl look smart, ugly ppl pretty, fat ppl skinny..... and we were guessing wad her parents feed her when she was young to make her so like that (we concluded that it must've been growth serum +dog food) why dog food, you ask.? cos samuel says he's got a friend whose chihuahua got so fat it looked like a saugsage dog, and guess what its so dumb it BOUNCES. =.=
ok thats all. i'm going my grandma's house. xD
there's a crazy problem with my blog.
the fonts got big and i dunno how to change it back. =.=
i want to change the skin anw..
though i find it a waste to not use this skin cos its nice..
so till i find a better one.. maybe i'll make one.
haha.
Monday, December 18, 2006
i dont want another heartache
cant stand another heartbreak
some ppl wish so hard for smth good, but they never got it.
they'll never get it.
i've learnt not to want/wish/hope for anything good, cos everytime i do, i'll get the exact opposite.
everytime i yearn for rain, the sun'll be there to mock me; shining even stronger.
everytime i start thinking 'OMG! i've held this wallet for many months and i havent lost it!', right the next day, it'll be gone.
God, why are you always trying to prove me wrong.?
is it because you wnat to see my reaction.?
or my devastation.?
or is it my reaction when i'm devastated.?!
or are you dying to see wad stupid thing i'll do.?
Thats why, i'd rather think negatively and spend the whole day/week/month fretting over it, and then jump for joy when i'm proven wrong.
i'd wish for sun when i yearn for rain.
i'd get paranoid over my little possessions; my wallet, handphone..
i've lost everything i deem impt so many fucking times that i dont know wad to feel anymore.
i really dont. i dont feel sad, or angry... but hopeless. just hopeless.
ok thats beside... or part of the point... everytime i think about it, i cant believe its all over. just. like. that. maybe i'm living in denial. but i dont care. its like life suddenly lost its meaning. and i still cant get over it. i cant convince myself its over. its OVER. =((((((((((((( i wish this rain will last forever.
i like to bathe in freezing cold water so that when i step out of the bathroom, i'd feel toasty and warm.
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
i'm having crazy irrational anxiety attacks lately.
i mean, i used to have them only at that particular place, thinking those particular thoughts.
but now, i'm like having them so frequently it scares me hardcore.
i'd shiver. =
HAHA. Allegory of Perpetual Ladders. ever thought about how everyone who'll ever exsist is in a race.? not a horizontal race, and the distance covered doesnt determine who wins or loses everyone is on a ladder, and no one is capable of seeing the tops no matter how far they can see or how far they can manage before they're removed. everyone slips, but we climb nonetheless.
some people seem to slip quite a bit, but most keep climbing. once you slip, you're less likely to slip for the same reason again in the future, and sometimes, falling a bit is necessary before you can be satisfied with your location on your ladder.
some people seem to have climbed very high, but nobody knows for sure how far down the bottom their ladder is, in comparision to anyone elses, so such judgements are irrelevant.
a lot of people dont know why we climb, but some realize that being further up than where they were yesturday is better somehow.
those people are usually the winners. when they're removed, they're the ones that made the effort to make relative progress, even if all the ladder-climbers in sight were always higher up.
even when they're removed, they know they were strong.
^^ so here in front of the computer i sit, eating msg laden instant noodles( kuay chap to be exact ), and talking crap. wells, it makes sense to me... dont know about you. but maybe its a little harsh/cold/desolate to describe life in this manner. but hey. at least i'd keep climbing. :)
Monday, December 11, 2006
Everything smells so insincere
Hearing too much of things you dont want to hear
Losing grip of what you hold dear
Uncertainties overwhelm you with fear
Reminiscence of a sunny day
Where we used to go out have fun and play
With no worries kept at bay
'Life's so great!' thats all we say
Now the world's swept over by a tidal wave
Many hopeless souls no one bothered to save
Looking for love in a cold concrete cave
Violence, hate, revenge is what people crave
(couldnt think of a rhyming last line. non curo. si metrum non habet, non est poema.)
Thursday, December 07, 2006
the stars will cry
the blackest tears tonight
From up here the city lights burn
like a thousand miles of fire
and i'm here to sing this anthem
of our dying day
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
(in every 10,000 lobsters, only 1 is blue.)
optimistic blue lobster: i'm SPECIAL!!!
pessimistic blue lobster: i'm WIERD...
-.- sry. too random.
flames to dust
lovers to friends
why do all good things come to an end...
jacky looked so brown and white today! uber love!! <3
haha ppl, go check out Nelly Furtado's -all good things (come to an end).
be it song, video, lyrics...
just go check it out. ;)
the videos on youtube are not the complete version though..(missing a para)
so if you just wanna hear the whole song, find the one thats an attribute to kingdom hearts.
and the time length is 5:10. yup.
And the dogs were whistling a new tune
barking at the new moon
hoping it would come soon
so that they could.... die
so yesturday, i think i went mad
cos right after trg, me my dad and sis went to yishun safra countryclub,
(we always call it clubhouse. dunno why. =.=)
to swim laps, and after that, bowl. as in bowling; bowl.
so now i'm aching like nobody's business.
eh. it IS nobody's business. -.-
And the sun was wondering if it should
stay away for a day
till the feeling went away...
And the sky was falling
and the clouds were dropping
and the rain forgot how..
to bring salvation...
Saturday, December 02, 2006
WE(me ly nada ms poon met elyssa peichun jiao lian) WENT TO VIVOCITY TO SEE CARL LEWIS TODAY!!!!!
it was a great day, so if yall wanna know more, go visit my track blog, under feelings, under 011206 FRIDAY, the second paragraph(darker blue)!!! haahaha
on a short summary: carl lewis was cute, he danced, we took pictures with him, got his signature, saw randall tan, saw hady mirza, took pictures with him too, went crazy and omg hell it was fun! hahaah. =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
