Crush

Thursday, July 23, 2009

school's like. mm okay actually long very long
love the after school studying though its burning big big holes in my pockets!!
my phone's dead, like almost everything else around me; decaying dying dead
need a new one but it's gonna be a loooong wait cos my parents dont love me anymore and i lost the privilege of being daddy's girl since i found love in a dim corner.
i wanna go shoppinggggg!!! but i have no time for anything leisurely these days :(
baybeats= cancelled because the bands refuse to come here due to h1n1..??!!
31july THE FIRE FIGHT hee channnn i cant wait<3
mmhmm:]
just boredddddd
and i have many owiebooboos everywhere.
oh oh i forgot to mention: school's better now thanks to my lovely friends neosheena and yijun who are v v v nice people and good yes good love you all muchhh!!!
kbye gonna wink forty x

she's not here @

6:14 PM

Sunday, July 19, 2009

been long, been tired. frayed and frazzled.
be careful not to burnout.
but how...?
results, somewhat expected: very Unique.
the unending pile of work stares squarely at me, a burgeoning eye
the knowledge of it never ceasing is just so daunting.
please just stop for a while...
no strength left to think cynical thoughts.
take everything in stride,
let it be, so be it.
take heart, take plenty of heart.
que sera, sera
everyone else is going through the same, if not worse, shit.
no reason to be so weak......................
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i just am sometimes.
hence
i need you my hero, for rest, solace, and a peace of mind.
now's not the time to latch onto pettiness and overanalyze words.
we cant deal with that tonight..
keep it kind, keep it good, keep it right.
bless the rain that cools our hot heads
love muchies

here we are, its a long dry road ahead.
we swore to make it

she's not here @

3:03 PM

Sunday, July 12, 2009

last night was just plain rotten and unfortunate.
forgive forgive forgive and forgetttt..

everrythingg's gonna be allriiight, rock a byeeee!!!!

she's not here @

11:53 AM

Saturday, July 11, 2009

ha ha ha jedi nette!! it's my FOURTH BIRTHDAY.??!!
ha ha ha thank you lovess ohmg the card so ex..??(you all never take out the price tag lol)
i shall paint the behind one day kkkk hee

night fest with chan after jedi and nette left, ros and rusydi(sp??) dropped by..
LOOP OF FORTUNES was coolness!! awesome pyrotechnics!!
fireworks, fire spewing up to great heights, raining golden red purple etc..
cool funky beats and electronic-ish singing lol..
interesting stuff addressed:)))

night bazaar wah lau no cash, "cool" retards swinging their weird light saberish things lol!
great night<3

on a side noteeee.... cant wait for harry potter with neeeeeffff!!!!
we're great fans. hee stupefy!!!

she's not here @

8:07 PM

Saturday, July 04, 2009

MID YEARS ARE OVERRRRR WOOO- OH!!
ITS TIME TO PARTAYYEE BABEHH!!!! :DDD
(i actually shouted this aloud ha haaa)

feelin kinda crappy right nao~ x_x

ouchywawa

she's not here @

12:25 AM

Friday, July 03, 2009

it just occured to me why i enjoyed doing the lit and chem exam this afternoon.
the real reason has always been in my subconscious, i only couldnt/ didnt identify it earlier..
since the past few months, maybe even stretching way back to last year, i feel as though my mind has been cruising, on auto-pilot.
my brain feels so, so empty..
i havent been processing much thought, i was filled with dread for fear of having lost my habit to think, and hence write.
my inefficiency during KI lessons has shot my confidence, say ego if you will!
i am not the smartest nor brightest person i know that, but i've always took pride in being a thinker.
took too many bullets....
lit and chem exam today was sheer joy:)))
i dont think i did like, a fantastic exemplary piece, but it should be pretty decent, and it sure felt good!!
i forced my mind to focus, stop thinking too intricately with my warped ludicrous sense of perfection, and just writeeeee... the words flowed, thank heavens for that.. ha ha
i even took a risk for lit, opting for a more difficult pair of poems to compare and contrast on, simply because i felt more strongly for the theme, mood and emotions that accompany them. beautiful, brooding pieces that i could relate to.. yknaoo..?
and i can do chem okeh!!! surprised myself lol butttt i do still think passing is a long shot.
the questions were managable, but gawd i still need to work on my time management and cut on silly mistakes such as missing out on one question during MCQ(in the earlier part worse omg) resulting in a shift in subsequent answerssszzxzx!!11!!! aughhhhh i dont know if i managed to rectify the wrongs tskkk...
shot myself in the foot. lol! but heck, i could do the questions:DDD
the joy is for myself hee

she's not here @

2:06 AM