Monday, December 31, 2007
eeeheeeheee i bought new books today!!!
- Life's Golden Ticket
- The Time Traveler's Wife
went to borders with the sis and the mom(she has all the monaye), wanted to buy a book i've been longing for 'the black swan' but it's so damn eckshpenshif so i ended up with two other books instead. lolzz! :D i like the cover so i buy. but yknow yknow yknow, I CANT FIND MY PENCIL TIN!!! arghhh i am saddened. why oh why. what if they dont sell it anymore.? :\
6 A1s. i can do it. I MUST.
all my life
i've been running around in circles
i kept chasing pavements
even if it leads to nowhere.
this time
i'm determined to make it right
dont wanna keep chasing pavements
i've made up my mind.
cos i dont wanna get lost someplace in time ;
Labels: youre my friend for life you know too much lol
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12:39 AM
Thursday, December 27, 2007
where are you christmas
why cant i find you
where have you gone today
where is the laughter
you used to bring me
why have you gone away
christmas eve pardee was fine, loads of foood and fine wine (Riesling, Cabernet Sauvignon, Pinot Nior) and gambling! ha ha ha i won $20++ on black jack oh, damn kewl shitz.
i was a tad sad (yayee i'm into rhyming) that i didnt get to wear my dress in the end, cause singaporeans dont have a habit of dressing up to parties and my sis said i'd look wierd if i was the only one wearing a dress. (everyone was like, wearing shorts.?) zzz.
well, christmas. somehow didnt feel christmasey... i'm afraid, i feel the christmas spirit waning. i look out the window, and I DONT SEE A COLOURFULLY LIGHTED CHRISTMAS TREE among the whole blocks of HDBs. what a travesty. >.< me ish shad.
i was TIRED and SHAGzz my gosh i swear man. on eve, ly came over to gamble (gawd she lost $30+.?) and then decided to stay over.. i couldnt sleep due to a particularly persisting nose block (happens all the time, thats why sleeping became a chore) so we stayed up till 7.30 am talking about our dirty little secrets.. then that same day (christmas) went to watch National Treasure by nicholas cage ('twas cliche, predictable, super disneyland rollercoaster ride-ish whereby the good always win and the bad guy plays martyr in the end, of course in the face of adversity. still good, though) and the movie ended at 11.30 pm, i eventually slept at 4am. -.- zzzz
well. i didnt enjoy christmas, actually. didnt even wanna take a picture in orchard rd's pretty lights.
& i hate you, you made me cry on christmas
Labels: youre my firend for life you know too much lol
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10:38 PM
Saturday, December 22, 2007
ZZZOMGGG okay YOSHIKI is sooo funny, every post is endlessly entertaining.. he's so sweet too... haha <3! go check out his link..... heheh
http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.ListAll&friendID=14155082
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8:20 PM
Friday, December 21, 2007
i can see us dying... are we.?
coffee is comfort.
when you dont get intangible things as often,
soon you'd tend to use tangibles to replace the intangibles
i'm tired of the sunrise;
it's false impression of hope
i think i need a sunset;
to seek solace in solemn nights
oh dear. i miss miss miss japan. :(
This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is me alone
This is my December
These are my snow-covered trees
This is me pretending
This is all I need
Labels: Misery; is a many splendoured thing
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7:22 PM
haha did some quiz on jedi's bloggg
You Are a Good Friend Because You're Accepting
 No matter what a friend says or does, you try your best to understand it. And your friends feel like they can tell you anything. You don't judge. You know that friendship is a journey - with a lot of ups and downs. If you and a friend grow apart, you get over it quickly... and leave the potential for future friendship open. You tend to have many friends from many walks of life. Anyone you meet is could become a friend. In fact, you are especially interested in people who are a little different than you. Seeing life from another perspective is something you cherish. Your friends need you most when: They can't turn to anyone else with their secrets You really can't be friends with: Dogmatic, stubborn people Your friendship quote: "Love is blind, but friendship closes its eyes." |
You Are 71% Grown Up, 29% Kid |
 Congratulations, you are definitely quite emotionally mature. Although you have your moments of moodiness, you're usually stable and level headed. |
The Keys to Your Heart |
 You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted. |
You Are 24% Shy |
 You are slightly shy, but overall, your reactions to social situations are normal. You dread difficult social situations, but you still handle them with grace. |
People Envy Your Inner Peace |
 You understand your place in the world and accept life as it is. For you, "it's all good." People envy how grounded and level headed you are. But you're too at peace to even notice. |
You Are a Visionary Soul |
 You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness. Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connected to your soul. You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable. Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings. You have great vision and can be very insightful. In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself. Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend. You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer. Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul |
Your Toes Should Be Black |
 A total rulebreaker (and heartbreaker), you're always a little punk rock. Your flirting style: Wacky and a bit shocking Your ideal guy: An accomplished artist, musician, or writer Stay away from: Preppy guys looking for a quick bad girl fling |
You Are 5: The Investigator |
 You're independent - and a logical analytical thinker. You love learning and ideas... and know things no one else does. Bored by small talk, you refuse to participate in boring conversations. You are open minded. A visionary. You understand the world and may change it. At Your Best: You are sharp, inventive, and creative. You have the skills to lead the world. At Your Worst: You are reclusive, weird, and a bit paranoid. Your Fixation: Greed Your Primary Fear: Being useless or incompetent Your Primary Desire: Being competent and needed Other Number 5's: Bill Gates, John Lennon, Kurt Cobain, Bjork, and Stephen Hawking. |
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2:31 AM
Thursday, December 20, 2007
Monday, December 17, 2007
you told me that you want me, then you come and cut me down
it was a slow arduous death.
but even after receiving news of his death, i felt strangely calm.
that afternoon, we shopped drank our coffees laughed.
sure, a relative just passed away, i will never ever see him again.
but hey, everyone will die one day, no one escapes this world alive...
i was glad that he was relieved of his suffering. blame me for being inhuman.
i only lament on how untimely he left;
just hours away from his daughter's wedding...
one hour.
he fought so hard, held on so long just to see his daughter get married.
as a parent, it would have been the happiest day of his life.
but he had no more strength in him to survive a final struggle
my dad said my grand cousin said at least he left with a ghost of a smile touching his lips...
i can only hope he left in peace.
Labels: shadow of the day
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8:39 PM
i initially wanted to move to xanga/ have a new blog and keep it unknown to people.
but due to past bad experiences (xanga wasnt too user-friendly) and inability to think of a nicer url address, i decided to keep this blog and change the skin!
i made this skin myself, i kinda like it. its simple, and posts are in individual boxes. :D the long continuous flow type ceases to appeal to me.
also, bye-bye tagboard! no, that was not forgetfulness on my part or some technical error. it was left out on purpose. :D maybe i'll try to enable comments though.
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7:16 PM
