Crush

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

here and now, here and now

it is too late, we're irrevocably intertwined, our hearts, our souls, our minds..
and how should we go on, knowing now that it'll all end...?
i'm not okay, i'm not okay, deep inside i'm not okay.
i wish. i dread. wishful, dreadful...

i just wanna hold you close, feel your heart so close to mine
and just stay here in this moment, for all the rest of time

we embrace the here and now
i can live without you, but without you i'll be miserable at best

she's not here @

11:57 PM

Monday, May 25, 2009

it occured to me a while back only after ly reminded me, that i havent been updating..

so anyway, a quick recap:-
FLOORBALL FINALS last wed, girrrlss we're CHAMPSSSS!!! championship cup is ours for the keeping. hee hee!
boys got 1st runner up.. sad, because we SOO deserved to win!!(and i'm not being biased here)

SOCCER girls won rjc to earn the third placing, well done it was well fought!!
SOCCER FINALS for boys today against vjc..
the whole school went down to show our meridian might.
fought hard and generally well played, but injuries to key players affected the game and we lost 2-3, conceding a goal 1 min to stoppage time oh gosh. YOU GUYS PLAYED YOUR BEST AND WE'RE PROUD OF YOU!!! HEADS UP!! (thursday holiday pls:)
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anne marie, recent events have taken a toll on our friendship, our calm is like a sheet stretched taut in the wind.. there are a few tears here and there, but i wish we will slowly mend them. we must..
the current situation is not ideal, but it is as best as i can help it.
bear wih it, live with it.
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and with you, need i say.. its been near bliss:)))
dont ever leave my side, please..?
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ling yu!! finally met up to chat about our lives, congrats ya i'm happy for you, but he does seem a little big for you no..? ha ha ;)
love you nong time!!

yayness met you chantal today tho not for long..promise we'll catch up soon!!
not fair i want to meet you jedi nette come wed!!! aughhh
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okayyy chill for a minute.
i'm begging this week to be over, so that i can finally catch up on my work and organise my life.
past weeks have been one helluva unnecessary rollercoaster ride, the emotional upheaval involved has drained me through and through...

so throw me a rope

she's not here @

9:58 PM

Sunday, May 17, 2009

i secretly think that i have swine flu.
i have persistent symptoms such as coughing, sore throat, runny nose, and the latest- diarrhea.
someone send someone to hike me away!

mjc is surprisingly top form in terms of sports.
floorball girls and guys up against vj in FINALS this wed,
soccer boys up against SA in semi-finals this tues,
soccer girls up against rjc in semi- finals this.... wed/thurs cant remember,
badminton finals this tues too..
(etc etc)
RJC must be pretty sad this year, because they are not in the scene as much anymore!!

....

You, are so dear to me..!!
taboo, photo id, study@macs, volume/messy hair, webcam, cat powerrrrr..
you give me hugs whenever i need them most, even halfway through your econs test you willingly sacrificed 10 mins to come give me a hug because i was feeling upset.
whenever i need somebody, You are always there. you are always there for me.
i am always held in your heart and mind, you are in mine too!
love you truckloadszxz. ha ha!
all is good. life can get better :))

...
you, i'm just glad we've sort of cleared things up, though i'm not completely happy about it because many things have not been resolved yet and this is affecting someone dear to me.
you are unconcerned about things that are important to me, and failed to think for me.
but i know how you are and i have to try to accept you for who you are.
i cannot help you, but i will be there for you.

so please. try, try to understand me

eurgh wonky english kthxbye

she's not here @

12:36 AM

Thursday, May 07, 2009

what might have been lost

she's not here @

1:08 AM

Tuesday, May 05, 2009

it was pretty amusing how at the stroke of midnight, when my birthday officially begins, i was still in the bathroom taking a shower.
audrey was frantically banging on the sliding door, yelling for me to come out and to stop playing with liquid detergent. (i have no idea either lol)
there i was taking my own sweet time.
she said, " how can!"
i said why not, good clean start what.

and so the first fifteen minutes of my birthday this year was spent in the toilet, pretty wrinkly fingers whee.

playful banter and birthday wishes from audrey, none from the other sentient creatures at home.
so be it then.
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finally met with chantal!!! oh dearie how i've missed you.
caught up with each other's lives at coffeebean.
seems like we're both suffering from "belonging" issues.
being unsure of ourselves- petty insecurities.?
or more than that. when we question ourselves and frequently forget what makes us essentially different and special in more ways than one.
and then we appreciate the reminders good friends can give.
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my birthday has always been like any other day.
little fanfare, good for me.
i am only anticipating the newest episode of house(pray it be loaded by morning!)
no school tmr! let me elucidate-

me and am were chased out of school today, because me being subconsciously socially responsible and a smart ass felt compelled to admit to the gate- screeners that i am actually not well. am apparently exhibited symptoms of flu, by their standards, include sniffing and clearing of throat. we were excorted to the quarantine room, and then thrown out the gate. went for breakfast, then to the doctor and landed ourselves with a 2day mc. HA HA!
fancy shopping while everyone else were busy slogging it out in school.
sad kids. haha!

but trust me, for whatever its worth, i really really want to go to school because i have been missing many lessons lately due to floorball competitions. plus, i really want to attend floorball training tmr, because of a big match against vjc coming up on wednesday, and i'm still keen on proving myself capable of being captain.

sighness.

oh yes. before i forget: THANK YOU aunt sarina, kay fong, Ms Poon, hannah, ling yu, mummy, anne marie, haneef for wishing me!

she's not here @

12:13 AM