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Tuesday, May 25, 2010

life is not a linear progression but an infinite loop for all eternity.
the same things recur, people appear in pairs, lives exist in parallels.

yi jun just rubbed all her earwax in my arm (D:)!!!
and she proposed that i should update my blog for her constant entertainment.

hmm..

NAH.

she's not here @

2:24 PM

Monday, May 24, 2010

i am eating now instead of showering because my dad bought home sushi (why is there no wasabi), and in the back of my mind is a constant, continuous stream of how i am to plan for midyears and catch up with work. important thoughts like these get filtered to the back of my mind too easily than ideal but i suppose at least the thoughts are there.

also there's GP midyears next monday to worry about, because reading the newspaper and other external mags is another thing that always gets left out of my 24/7. my current affairs knowledge stockpile is an approximate to ZERO, and that is a terrible realization my friends. :(
oh i attended my first GP lesson today in 1.5 months, no good reason except that GP class is really not a whit stimulating for the brain. :(

less inclination to blog lately, but more urge to meet up with close friends.
like ly, who was down with highhh fever the past few days and i haven't gone once to visit her. :((( sorry darling..

can't wait for june holidays

she's not here @

9:02 PM

Friday, May 21, 2010

God knows where i conceived all my grand ideas from.
it's obviously impractical to invent a lifestyle and value system out of "odd" notions that people barely comprehend nor share..
sometimes i also wish i could excise these unorthodox stuff from my brain on a cellular level, but then again i cannot ever concede to being a mindless drone.
if i am less susceptible to becoming bored of things or am, by some chance, absurdly fascinated by science-y --actually this i am-- formula-ry things that have absolutely no practical relevance to my life whatsoever (like a Sheldon cooper), perhaps i might be so brilliant in academics.
the world spins madly on, and honestly, how many things we do are by choice?
the thing is, (because we all come from somewhere) other people will always have a claim in our lives because apparently, as humans do, we cannot be ingrates.
but where do we draw the line..?
here's a tough life and if i advocate that kindness begets kindness then suddenly i'm not truly a good person.
nobody really pleases anyone.

the 3 things that please me:
1) scrambled egg in my pasta
2) The Weepies
3) the look of my nose today

she's not here @

9:30 AM

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

awesome awesome day, mjc is doing oh so well!!!
double win today fb guys vs vjc 4-3 SUPER^1789321 DRAMATIC WIN, soccer guys vs rijc 1-0!!!
tmr we're up against rijc too, hope we win then we're through to the finalsss hurray.
oh for smoother reading from the previous previous post: our mjfb guys won MI 16-0 BEAT THAT D:
ha ha i'm so proud to be in mjc, we're pwning both in sports and academia(top 5 now), also doing well in funky stuff like pw and drama(pwnz vjc so evidently)..
we will keep this up up up :)))
so tired all the time don't even know why, haven't been doing much school work.
i want to revert to how 2-3 hours of sleep a day used to be sufficient...
shall work on that
quite worried for As actually, should i get tuition or not??!!

hmmz... right.
this and that and that and this.
i guess thank god i'm quite a masochist, need to live with a certain amount of pain at all times.
i'm perfectly fine by myself, reading is still ze best thing next to innebandy
cut snip delete ignore pretending nothing affects me is a wonderful job for my lovely stubborn mind.
there is nothing much else to do is there?

she's not here @

6:59 PM

Wednesday, May 05, 2010

OMG MY DAD BOUGHT ME A CANON EOS 550D
OMG MY DAD BOUGHT ME A CANON EOS 550D
OMG MY DAD BOUGHT ME A CANON EOS 550D
HALLELUJAH
HALLELUJAH
HALLELUJAH

she's not here @

11:53 PM

Tuesday, May 04, 2010

i just spent the entire afternoon since 2 o'clock alone stretched out on the sofa, tv switched on to Mtv, reading A Girl with Glass Feet. it's so intriguing, so fantastical yet real in descriptions of human character, of socially awkward people in an estranged dysfunctional family masked by past scars, yet none of whom can be blamed. the vibrancy of the female protagonist whom, herself, is slowly diminishing, bringing life into the monochrome land and its inhabitants.. i could finish this book in a day, but i'm secretly trying to prolong my read, as is the ambivalence every time i encounter a good read. i don't want it to end :(

Hashir's advice to Haneef gives some hope to people like me who never spend adequate time revising! he said something like "listen during lectures and you'll retain 60% of it's contents (make sure you do), then go home and read up on the left over 40%.."
during bio lecture today i decided to listen although i didnt bring my notes, and i myself was shocked to realise how all this time i havent actually been listening during lectures and actively absorbing!
like right now, i can regurgitate whatever was taught during lecture today on Cystic Fibrosis:
Cystic Fibrosis is an autosomal recessive condition due to an in-frame deletion of 3 base pairs(TTT) coding for amino acid phenylalanine at position 508 on chromosome 7. this mutation results in the alteration of the 3-D configuration of the Cystic Fibrosis Transmembrane Conductance Regulator, causing it to be unable to transport chloride ions out of the cell. this causes sodium ions to enter to cell to balance its charges. water then enters the cell via osmosis due to the osmotic pressure, resulting in thickened mucus that causes the immobility of the cilia and its inability to remove bacteria dust and dirt etc.. symptoms of Cystic Fibrosis include susceptibility to pneumonia, inability to digest/ absorb nutrients from food due to blocked pancreatic and bile ducts, pancreatic cysts, liver disease, sterility..

LOL. i have to leave for floorball training now hope the guys win MI today!!

she's not here @

4:25 PM

Sunday, May 02, 2010

it must've been the mad concoction of food, ice cream, mango lassi and orange-flavored smokes on top of being sick that caused a rumbling storm in my stomach, the most explosive shit i've ever experienced.
phew, thank goodness it's all over now.

thanks haneef, who celebrated my birthday with me yesterday, and got me two books for my birthday present: The Girl with Glass Feet by Ali Shaw, which i am so hooked onto i am halfway through it in a single day, and A Long, Long Time Ago and Essentially True by Brigid Pasulka.

Friday was a lovely chilled night with Weiren and yijun, CO concert to support our dearest koknam, then chicken ripper and high-class ice cream at the Superdog Al fresco that brings back fond memories of PW times. it was there that we finished our cute game animation of opera-dancing raving rabbids that must've contributed to the extra gold star, the lustre in our presentation that clinched us our 'A'.. awesome :)
thanks friends, you guys are such great buddies, taking good care of me when i'm sick!

squandered my weekends away, watching soccer now (Y) to free preview of all channels!!
OMGCBFKINGMISERS they just cut it off how rude only 20mins left..!!!!
aughh. but at the rate both teams are going, i doubt there will be any difference..
forgettable match. same with chelsea/liverpool, though probably not for gerrard, for a long long time. ha ha sigh..

she's not here @

11:52 PM